I would never make the mistake of considering you someone inferior. I will say there are two versions of you. The one you show us is the front. It is you, but only a side of you. It is true, but only the half-truth. There is the other side of you that is smart, observant, and content. You don't emphasize that part, at least not in front of us.
I think you encompass two Batman villains together. Joker & Two-Face. I'm just waiting for you to get on the stage with Robert De Niro.